Monday, February 25th– Stressing about Assignments, but No Progress
Have you ever stressfully thought about working on something for hours or days, yet you …don’t? That was me this whole weekend. Friday, I gave up. I knew I was exhausted from the food bank and wasn’t going to be able to discipline myself into doing anything productive, so I didn’t even try to lie to myself. Saturday, I was so stressed thinking about the week ahead that I couldn’t focus long enough to get started. Sunday, I tried to motivate myself to work on my assignments all day, but at the end of the it gave in and accepted working on my blog for this week. I did nothing this weekend.
Today was supposed to be the first day of our Cafeteria rotation. Instead the dietitian told us she could not receive us that day, so we went to the Department of Health to get our hours for the day. I thought I’d get the assignments for the rotation done, but instead it took the whole 8 hours to finalize the case study PowerPoint and report that Gia and I have to present on Friday. I thought it was late (that we had to turn in a draft last Friday), but when I told the director that we’d leave it in the box for her she looked at us confused and told us that it was due when we presented. Well, at least that’s done. At home, I was stressed and did nothing.
Tuesday, February 26th– Slow Day at Rotation and Future Travel Stress
I woke up late. I didn’t sleep too too late, but I was exhausted. There’s a bus that goes all the way to the hospital our rotation is at, but I missed the one that would get me there on time. So, I took an Uber. These things are killing me. We don’t get paid for this internship. No housing or transport help either. This is all out of pocket and unfortunately my pockets were essentially emptied after I paid the tuition for this internship. Ugh. It was a slow day. The dietitian let us work on our assignments after seeing that we didn’t have any of them done. Oops.
Went home and splurged on fast food. Unhealthy coping, guys. Try to be stronger than I am. It was irrationally justified though. I called my dad to give him a head’s up about a rotation in three weeks where I have to travel little over an hour to get to, a two-week rotation. But wait! It’s not in three weeks. It’s in two! Ughhh. And, there’s no reasonably priced place to stay over there. They say it’s the hardest rotation of the internship and I’d rather not drive two (or three with traffic) hours a day for two weeks. But I don’t have another choice. As if I wasn’t stressed enough.
Wednesday, February 27th– Donuts and Stressing about Assignments
Donuts. That’s what got me motivated to wake up today. I made it to the bus on time and was dropped off across the street from the hospital. Beside a Krispy Kreme. Yum! The rest of the day wasn’t quite as exciting. We mostly worked on the rotation’s assignments the majority of the day though I did once go into the hospital kitchen to help portion out fruit or juice, I forget which.
At home, I dreaded working on everything that is due on Friday, but somehow got my rotation stuff for Thursday done. The real accomplishment is that I finally began working on the second of three parts of this monster investigative proposal (that I’m sure I’ve been talking for months about) due on Friday. I didn’t finish much, but starting is a great step. I’ve slept about 3 hours a night for the past three days. Yet, I’ve not done much for that proposal. Ughh. I’m scared, but Friday afternoon can’t come soon enough.
Thursday, February 28th– More Donuts and Finally Working on that Assignment
More donuts today. I know I’ll find them useful for anxiety control later tonight. Again, do NOT follow my example. It’s a very short-term fix. And I have a very short amount of time to get this proposal done. …I need to start working on some long-term fixes like not procrastinating to this level. *sigh… someday. At the rotation we helped serve milk and fruit then gave a presentation to the kitchen staff. Only thing left to do is finish that darn proposal for tomorrow and maybe practice the case study I have to present with Gia tomorrow.
After the rotation, Gia and I went to a fast food place to work on that proposal. We worked from 5pm to midnight with light bathroom breaks and a short dinner break. It was intense, but worth it. I was able to sleep about two hours before arriving at the meeting on Friday.
Friday, March 1st– Case Study Presentation at Internship Meeting
Gia and I had gone over half the presentation and none of the data. We were going into this half blind. But fortunately, it all turned out okay. Half of the interns are completing their renal rotations. Little note about that: renal is the hardest rotation of the whole internship. Not only is there a travel component of at least 30 minutes by car, but the rotation is individual and involves a ton of assignments. (This is the rotation I mentioned earlier that I will have to travel over an hour for, but that I don’t have another choice.) Ah, and it’s with real patients. So. Yes. They weren’t going to be pulled out for our dinky presentations. Gia and I presented as well as Robin and Kayla (individually). After going over some practice questions we were able to go home.
I may have watched YouTube or something chill, but there was nothing left to do today but sleep.
Saturday, March 2nd– Pigeon Photos with Chance and Arcade with Joseph
Glorious sleep! I didn’t want it to end! So, I don’t think I mentioned it, but I’d been having some sick like symptoms all week. Sneezing, snot, and now coughing. But I didn’t feel sick and couldn’t afford to anyway. Well, that’s what I woke up to. So much mucus. But I had plans! I begrudgingly showered and got dressed. I also got into another argument with Axyl. I couldn’t find my toothbrush. He got mad I didn’t ask for his help (he could have let me have a spare of his). I left without saying a word…. but had to come back because I forgot my camera. I suck at dramatic exits it seems.
I did think about not going back for my camera. Chance would just have to deal with it and we’d have to change our plans. I’m so glad I got it though. We went to Old San Juan and got something called piraguas. It’s like a snow cone and it was delicious. 😊 After that, we visited the Pigeon Park. Yes. The one Joseph had mentioned when I went on a date with him last week. …was it last week? O.o Oh my goodness! I loved it! So many pigeons!! I took countless pictures! When I broke down and bought corn to feed them a pigeon came to me and stood on my knee as she ate! :3 I was so happy! She was sooo soft! I didn’t know pigeons were soft!! Ugh!! I am coming back. X)
Last event of the day was another outing with Joseph. Geez… That sounds a little bad… I don’t remember how it turned out that I scheduled things with both guys this day, but here we are. Joseph and I went to Dave and Busters. Haha! An adult arcade essentially. It was so much fun! He beat me in most things, but it was alright. We both failed miserably at Guitar Hero! X) (I got cocky and chose hard and he did the same!) Have you guys ever done any virtual reality thing? There was this ride. It was more realistic than I expected! I mean, I was still aware of where I was, but if I wasn’t thinking about it, I could have not known! The future is frightening!! Anyway, after our fun we got the tiniest prize with our measly tickets. He got a little orange bouncy ball and I got a blue plastic chicken X)
He’d asked me if I was hungry before heading to the arcade, but I’d said no. He asked me again now to which I responded not really. X) Haha, the poor guy was hungry, so I said I could eat something though I wasn’t really hungry. We ate at the food court of the adjoining mall. Mexican food. It was a fun moment when he was suffering after a bit of salsa and I, the brave one, got a chip drowned in the salsa and just smiled and said it wasn’t spicy. Haha! You guys should have seen his face! First when I smothered the chip in salsa he looked at me like I was a mad woman, then when I said it wasn’t spicy he looked incredulous. XD It was great!
It wasn’t all fun and games though. Eventually we got on the topic of the whole dating app thing and I used that moment to clarify any doubts. I’d told Chance I was dating other people, but I hadn’t told Joseph. Maybe it wasn’t necessary, but I didn’t want to mislead him or make him think that this was something exclusive. I felt him deflate. ☹ I hate that part. When guys get all quite and hurt. I didn’t want to keep seeing him without him knowing though.
I really feel like I’m a step below being Chance’s girlfriend (he doesn’t want to put a label on it, but I feel like we are in an unofficial relationship or even just a step after friends, friends who kiss and stuff, if you will). Because of that, I don’t feel right kissing or being physically affectionate with anyone else. *sigh I had to let Joseph know where I’m at with Chance. It took a few minutes, but the conversation picked up again and we ended the night well. I gave him my number and bid him a good night.
Sunday, March 3rd– Watching Silence of the Lambs Again and Making Up with Axyl… Again
Another late awakening. Nice. This time not to snot and sneezing! Woo hoo! Since Joseph is a huge movie buff, I promised to see a movie sometime this week. I decided on Silence of the Lambs. I’d seen it before, but it’d been a while. I think books will always have the #1 spot for me, but I love the story, so it’s interesting to see all it’s adaptations. Honestly, the series mayyyyy beat the book. The one exception to my books are #1.
Axyl and I talked. We are on okay terms again. Man, that’s exhausting. I don’t like being mad with him. I live with him! If I wanted a toxic home environment I would have stayed at the apartment with Karen and Robin!
- Gia and I go back to the Non-profit! For a week-long community rotation.
- Chance and I have a spicy food competition! …it was one of those dumb ideas that just sort of happened. This Wednesday! We are going to cook food for the other person. It’s going to be a three-course meal. I’m thinking spicy ice cream for dessert!
- Easy week. Hey! Not everything can be hectic and exciting! Your girl needs rest too!!