Good Riddance Nutrition Internship!- Song Dedications for some of my Fellow Interns and the Director

Director-

Your entire internship has beaten down on my self worth and confidence, but I got through it. The day I publish this is graduation day and the day you hand me my verification statement that allows me to put all of this behind me and makes me eligible to take the licensure exam to become a dietitian and have a stable career. I know you did everything you did in a twisted attempt to make us interns stronger, but I undoubtedly would have benefited more from a kinder approach. Thanks anyway.

I’m criticized but all your bullets ricochet
You shoot me down, but I get up
I’m bulletproof nothing to lose
Fire away, fire away
Ricochet, you take your aim
Fire away, fire away
You shoot me down but I won’t fall, I am titanium
…You shoot me down but I won’t fall, I am titanium

Karen-

I know your life has been tough. I’m sorry you turned out this way. I don’t blame you. That’s just who you were meant to become. I hope for your sake you can come off your high horse long enough to realize your flaws (because you are not immune to them) and do something about them instead of simply loathing yourself for them or outright denying them. That is all. Sincerely, have a good life. …or at least a better one.

You screwed everybody over in this town
There ain’t nothing between you and the cold hard ground
Keep running your mouth and stretchin’ the truth
You just might find a hole in your parachute

So step off, step off
Yeah you’re getting too close to me
With all your negativity…

Just keep climbing that mountain of dirty tricks
When you finally get to the top
Hmm step off

Axyl-

Thanks for being my buddy. It’s been a long winding road with you as we both have trust issues. That’s been a doozy! Yet, you’ve been my confidant and for that I thank you. Loyal till the end! Arrivederci! Hope you find a friend much better than me. You more than deserve that.

What if I’m far from home?
Oh brother, I will hear you call!
What if I lose it all?
Oh sister, I will help you out!
Oh, if the sky comes falling down, for you
There’s nothing in this world I wouldn’t do

Hey Brother by Avicii lyrics by Lea Lauhoff

Robin-

It’s been real strange. You were the first person in the room I wanted to befriend. Not sure if it’s because you didn’t seem like the super outgoing type at first or because you and I were the only ones to bring our dads to that first orientation meeting, but I chose you and I was mistaken. How easily that friendship broke. I suppose we were friends once, yet this song reminded me of you.

Friends come and go, friends come and go
Go like the seasons
I never know, I never know what to believe in
And it’s getting old, it’s getting old
But no hard feelings
‘Cause friends come and go, friends come and go without a reason
And I, I’ve been in [Puerto Rico] for way too long
Can’t get this air inside my lungs
It feels like I’m suffocatin’ from all the lack of the realness here

Fuck Fake Friends F.F.F. by Bebe Rexha lyrics by Taz Network

Amanda-

I always saw you as the odd one out- dancing on your own cloud so far away from all of the internship’s worries. I understand the positive mindset (even if you don’t believe that, I do). However, you take it to another level. You don’t see anyone or anything other than yourself, your thoughts, and your ideas. In part it’s motivating to see someone not get swayed by everyday tragedies, but otherwise it’s simply off putting or concerning. Thank you for all the motivation throughout the year. You were a sort of role model for me. If this sickly sweet tune is the one you need to soldier on, go for it. I’m going to find another beat.

I’m seeing all the angles thoughts get tangled
I start to compromise my life and my purpose
Is it all worth it? Am I gonna turn out fine?
Oh oh, you’ll turn out fine
Fine, oh oh you’ll turn out fine

But, you gotta keep your head up, oh oh
And you can let your hair down, eh eh
I know it’s hard (know it’s hard)
To remember sometimes
But, you gotta keep your head up, oh oh
And you can let your hair down, eh eh eh eh

Keep Your Head Up by Andy Grammer lyrics by phamtazic

Gia-

This year has been a whirlwind with you as my internship partner. I’m not asking for you to believe me, but I honestly can’t imagine a more fun and mischievous internship with anyone else as my partner. That being said, your jealousy towards me was constant and palpable. You said it yourself once under the passion fruit vines- how you are a jealous person by nature. Please, for your sake, work on accepting what you have. Try to let go of your traumas. Be kinder to yourself so you can learn to accept yourself as you are and work on the things you would like to improve without leering at others’ mastery of them.

Be you! The majority of the time I thought you were wonderful. Don’t turn this around and snap at me and my flaws (as became a nasty habit of yours during the second semester of the internship). It’s time to part and stand on your own. Look into a mirror and focus on your reflection. Do it for yourself. Believe me, you’re awesome! 😀

Call me calloused, call me cold
You’re italic, I’m in bold
Call me cocky, watch your tone
You better love me, ’cause you’re just a clone
By the way, you’ve been uninvited
‘Cause all you say are all the same things I did
Copycat trying to cop my manner
Watch your back when you can’t watch mine
Copycat trying to cop my glamor
Why so sad, bunny, you can’t have mine?

Summary and What’s Next:

I’ve never met a group of people as insane and mentally unstable as I did during this internship. I’m glad it’s over and I hope enough of myself before this experience has survived to remind myself that the rest of humanity isn’t necessarily as unreasonable. I’ve changed so much due to this internship and I mourn much of my past self, but I have hope that my heart hasn’t hardened enough to prevent myself from loving and accepting new, deserving people in my life. It hurts to help and get slapped, but not as much as the shame of ignoring an outstretched hand.

The plan now is to begin training for a triathlon and study for the dietitian exam for the next three months. Then get a job as a dietitian and get a master’s degree. Maybe learn a language somewhere in there. I’m thinking German or American Sign Language. Limbo is scary, but we’ll see what happens. I fly back to Texas next Wednesday July 3rd! Happy summer everyone!

Description of a no one – Personal Poetry Collection

(Feel free to skip the intro and get right to the poem below!)

Man… 11th grade. What a sad time. Since then, I’ve learned a lot about myself and who I am (more than I wanted to know in some cases). This year-long nutrition internship has been tremendously trying, but I maintain a shaky self image. Yet, with the graduation ceremony two days after the publishing of this poem, I can’t help but feel how appropriate it is.

Sure, I have a Bachelor’s and an internship under my belt, but before passing that licensure exam I am no one, professionally speaking. I can’t work as a dietitian- the only thing my Bachelor’s degree is good for. Also, like I said the internship really did a number on my self worth which was just barely beginning to improve. :/ Very appropriate poem for my internship graduation. Enjoy?

January 20, 2013

Description of a no one

Who am I? No one important. A no one.

Without interest or passion that consumes me,

I have no worth. I have no love. Am no one.

 

I do not know who I am. I can not see

who I can be or ever was. Absence is

all I feel. There is no hope. There is no key.

 

I know what must be done, but the effort, ’tis

difficult to conjure. I am much too weak.

I do not know who I am, just that I fizz.

 

I am told of my flaws. I am told I’m meek.

I feel unloved, yet do not know what I seek.

Personal Statement for Nutrition Internship 2018 Matching

One more week until the graduation from my nutrition internship (from the time I post this). I felt it was only appropriate to reflect back on my dianty hopes and dreams when I was applying to internships I wouldn’t say this is an excellent personal statement, so if any of you are considering taking inspiration from this to write your own, please know that while the personal statement isn’t the deciding factor in admission to an internship, it’s a nice chunk and I got accepted into my fourth choice of internship. Anyway, enough business. Let’s read and laugh at my poor innocent past me. …

 

Dear Director,

My reasons for wanting to enter the dietetics profession boil down to three points: making people smile, educating others, and seeing a positive change due to my actions. These three guiding factors led me to initially seek a career in the hospitality industry with a teaching certificate and plans to continue to occupational therapy school. Each of these separate career plans satisfy one or two of my desires for a career, but dietetics satisfies them all. Is there a happier person than someone with diabetes, renal disease, irritable bowel syndrome, or any other disease who is taught how to enjoy food in a way that will not harm them? Only better is the joy of a parent who learns and teaches their children how to prevent these diseases. That is reason one, two, and three right there and it is why dietetics is my chosen career.

The best experiences that have helped prepare me for a career in dietetics come from my various hobbies. These lessons include pushing past pain and doubt (running), letting go and believing in my abilities (singing), not being afraid to fall and get back up (skateboarding), and making mistakes beautiful (painting). However, my love of languages has taught me as much as all the others combined. I have seen people transform from shy and quiet to talkative and overjoyed when they have found out I speak the same language as them (Spanish). Being able to provide information and understanding to someone who expected none is a feeling unlike any other. Language forms connections and connections make anything possible among people.

Some of my short-term goals include getting matched to a great internship and applying my theoretical knowledge about nutrition to hands on practice. My long-term goals include becoming a licensed dietitian and working in schools by planning fresher more nutritious meals for children or working in the community through education.

Strengths of mine include relating to people well and being able to adapt to different situations. For example, one day I was managing the shops I work in and one of the workers from the smoothie shop next door (“Dee” for the purposes of this story) comes in sluggishly and clearly not herself. I talk to her and find out that she’s been having some stress at home. After a couple of minutes and some successful jokes on my part, she wanders out and back to her shop. I take a moment and talk to a co-worker with experience at the smoothie shop where Dee works. With this co-worker’s permission, I offer Dee the chance to work with me for the night. She takes it and spends the rest of the evening laughing and joking while she works with the rest of the crew. I could see that Dee needed people in that moment, so I did what I could to provide that to her while making sure both shops were not neglected in the process.

As far as weaknesses, the one I have noticed by far is socializing with new people. I do very well speaking to a person one on one and even better when speaking to someone I have known for a long time, but when it comes to groups and new people it does not come naturally to me. The best thing I have done to combat this is staying at my seasonal job as a cashier over three years. Every summer that I go, I dread putting myself in a situation where I may speak to countless strangers for eight hours a day, but every fall that I return to school, I see how much my people skills have progressed. By striving to improve this area, I now feel confident about going into the field of dietetics that emphasizes working with various new people.

El servicio a la comunidad es muy importante para mí. Cuando estaba en la preparatoria solía hacer trabajo voluntario cada sábado. Aunque me he enfocado más en mis estudios y mi empleo en mis años de colegio, espero hacer servicio a la comunidad una gran parte de mi vida al graduarme. Su programa con enfoque en la comunidad sería manera excelente de regresar a esa pasión mía. Yo hablo español fluido y he estudiado lectura y escritura desde mi primer año de preparatoria hasta mi último año de universidad. Tengo confianza que podré adaptarme bien a vivir en Puerto Rico y me emociona tener la oportunidad de sumergirme en la lengua española. Entiendo que el Departamento de Salud del gobierno de Puerto Rico busca a los aplicantes más cualificados que tomarán ventaja del programa riguroso de internado. Le puedo asegurar que yo soy una de esas aplicantes calificadas. Gracias por su atención. Espero escuchar de usted pronto. No dude en mandar correspondencia con cualquier pregunta que tenga.

Kind regards,

Laura Gómez

 

 

(Yes… I took a chance and wrote the last paragraph in Spanish. I figured this internship is in Puerto Rico, I want to show the director that I have mastery of the language. I know the internet is great and can translate stuff, but below will be my translation of the last paragraph.)

Community service is very important to me. When I was in high school I used to do volunteer work every Saturday. Although I have focused on my education and employment during my university years, I hope to make community service a big part of my life upon graduating. Your program with a community focus would be a great way to return to that passion of mine. I speak fluid Spanish and have studied reading and writing since my first year of high school to my last year of university. I am confident that I will be able to adapt well to life in Puerto Rico and I am excited to have the opportunity to immerse myself in the Spanish language. I understand that Puerto Rico’s Department of Health seeks only the most qualified candidates to take advantage of their rigorous internship. I can assure you that I am one of those qualified applicants. Thank you for your time. I hope to hear from you soon. Feel free to reply with any question you may have.

 

 

All of that is basically still true, except maybe the first paragraph. I think that can be true, but the real reason I chose dietetics is because it was an easier way to become a health professional without going through years of med school. Also because food is fun and the profession is very diverse, so with a little searching, I will be able to find a job I, at the very least, don’t despise. That’s the short version. (Click here for the long version.)

Anyway, I hope that was somewhat entertaining. One more week until the graduation!! And then less than a week until I take a plane back to good ol’ Texas! 😀

 

 

P.S. Haha!! The notebook titles (from my classes my last year of university) make a lot of sense to describe my experiences this year during the internship! XD

Trees – Personal Poetry Collection

I’ve learned a lot about people throughout my yearlong internship. Mostly negative things about them and myself. SO, in honor of that, here’s a poem I wrote waaaayyy back in 2012 when I first started my personal poetry collection about how trees are much better than people. I was on to something back then…

 

October 14, 2012

Trees

Grand and majestic,

trees symbolize great power.

Why is this power

so high above us? Is it

because we are so lowly?

June 2nd 2019 A Blog Update and my New Unexpected Obsession (Triathlons)

What’s going on? I have descended into a very comfortable empty life of laziness. I’ve had numerous rotations in my internship that are easy to say the least. No homework means lots of YouTube and a constant internal nagging about responsibilities like laundry or this blog that do not get fulfilled. It really is upsetting, since I could have used this time to do so much more with my life, but instead I watched the entire Psych series (don’t regret that, by the way).

 

Rotations

Let’s super speed recap. Last time I wrote was Easter break. Since then I had a public policy rotation. That was boring and just busy work. The next week was an out of town trip to a supermarket rotation that was nice-ish. It was a nice change of environment. Preceptor was nice and the assignments were interesting since I was able to be creative with them. Gia snapped at me and I reminded her with a very abrupt stop of the car that upsetting the driver is not a good idea. We got through it and made it back in one piece for our next rotation in another town as well.

That one was about school food which is something I am interested in, but apparently more so than the preceptor. We were released ridiculously early every day (before noon!). Didn’t learn much. Finally the last three weeks Gia and I have been at a community garden. Yep. That’s what happened.

 Guys

One date. Missed Joseph’s play that he helped produce because I got confused on the time. But still organized another movie date a week or so afterwards at his apartment. It was great. 🙂 We watched A Quiet Place and then read each other some of our writing. Short stories, poems, etc. It was really wholesome and unexpected.

Chance graduated university with a Bachelor’s in criminal justice. I dropped off some food for him while he was at work on Saturday since the Agronomer we work with at the garden had made some. Other than that I haven’t met up with him. …maybe since Easter. :/ Now, I miss hanging out with him, but don’t want to beg him for his time. I leave in a month though… Oh well.

5K to Triathlon?!

I’m so done with this internship. Just want it to be over. I guess that’s not new. The latest thing has been scrambling to complete the volunteer hours mandated. No events have been offered in over a month, so Gia and I have been going to the community garden every Saturday for the past three weeks. The one event that was offered recently was a 5k. Two of them. On the same day. We were told at a group meeting last Friday that they would take place on Sunday. Two days notice! One had the registration close Friday night, so I wasn’t able to register, but the other one… Yeah, Amanda really encouraged me to do it, so I did.

Mind you, I used to run, but haven’t done so in about two years. With two days to prep, yeahhhhh…. It wasn’t impressive, but I completed it. First 5k I’ve ever done. 😀 When I used to run I was training to complete a 5k and got to the point that I could run the whole thing. I was just working on improving my time then. I wanted to get faster before doing a 5K (Time was like 35 minutes, so not fast at all). So I never signed up. Now, out of the blue without any training in years, I did one. 47 minutes. Awful time, but I did it!

Remember when I said I obsess about things? I find a hobby and get so wrapped up in it? I focus for hours on it, planning and perfecting whatever it is that caught my attention. Eventually, I fall out of love. That’s inevitable. Welp, after the 5k, I met up with Amanda and since the finish line was across the street from a beach we went for a dip. I joked we should swim out and touch the buoy. Surprisingly, she said yes. No one else I’ve swam with in the ocean has been brave enough to go out deep enough to touch the buoys that mark the safe swimming area.

I was so excited I just took off in a mad dash! Halfway there I looked back and saw her way behind. She shouted “Wow! You’re fast!” I raced her a second time a while later and got two massive cramps in both my calves. Haha, that could have ended badly, but this was a race now! I had to keep going! Slowly I crawled to the buoy yelling encouragement to Amanda. Things like, “I’m injured, this is your moment!” Haha, it was so much fun! Afterwards Amanda asked me to swim with her next weekend saying she’d like train with someone fast like me. I joked that at this point I should train for a triathlon.

Yep. That was the spark. Now I am obsessed with triathlons. I’ve done a ton of research this week and have swim classes set up for when I get back to Texas. I even have decided on a triathlon to train for in late October. Hopefully I’ll be ready by then. I’m hoping this obsession lasts long enough until I start training, because if it does, I do enjoy running and swimming. I’ll keep doing those things. I just have to start. Biking is going to be new, but I think I can do it. 🙂

 

So, yep. That’s been my life the last six weeks. Only 5 weeks left in Puerto Rico! Hopefully I post again before I’m back in Texas. XD