I made a YouTube channel called So You Know in an attempt to regain the speck of zest for life I used to have. Maybe that won't happen, but you'll get to see how my life gets better day by day......or worse, jury is still out about that...
Maybe I'm letting my parents down, but I am building myself up.
Basically, I don't believe there is such a thing as enough. And it terrifies me. So, I constantly jump to the next thing hoping that becomes enough "enough" for me. December 12, 2019 Onto the Next There is no end my friends they say, "don't delay soon will be your day!" But next… Continue reading Onto the Next – Personal Poetry Collection
I wrote this poem in different colored permanent markers in my art journal, hence the different colored text. It's about acknowledging I'm a work in progress and hoping the people in my life accept and support my crazy form of progression. December 12, 2019 Will You Accept Me as I Am? please forgive me… Continue reading Will You Accept Me as I Am? – Personal Poetry Collection
April Update Lose enough weight to be classified as overweight at a BMI of 24.9 or less (weight loss of about 30 pounds) Overall: BMI still about 35.2 like it was in December. 😦 April Gained back those 5 pounds. Back to a BMI of 35. Hadn't weighed myself for the first three… Continue reading New Year’s Resolutions for 2020 – Progress as of May 1st
Ooooh, I remember this one. It's about someone I considered a friend who would ask for my help constantly, which I gave to her gladly, but when I needed a friend she wasn't there for me. Instead, I would doodle flowers in my notebook to soothe my anxiety. January 2019 Doodle Flowers Softly they bloom… Continue reading Doodle Flowers – Personal Poetry Collection
Aw man... This poem makes me sad. What was I going through when I wrote it? It sounds like the opposite of my first (and only) relationship. Like, if this were the perspective of me over-correcting in a future relationship. So much, that the roles are now reversed. This is why I write a little… Continue reading My Relationships – Personal Poetry Collection
As surprised as I am that I haven't published this poem yet, I understand. This one came from such raw pain. I wrote it immediately after "I Wasn't Always Mute" when I was waiting for a phone call from my dietetic internship director to scold my internship partner and me. I questioned everything in those… Continue reading Go Home. – Personal Poetry Collection
I was listening to music and watching videos about art when I wished I had the artistic ability to draw what I felt. Something like a balloon surrounded by cacti. Or a dark room pierced by pinpricks of blinding light. Then I remembered the art of written words: poetry. So I wrote this about relaxing… Continue reading Seeking Solitude – Personal Poetry Collection
March Update Lose enough weight to be classified as overweight at a BMI of 24.9 or less (weight loss of about 30 pounds) Overall: Better than January, but that's not saying much. 5 pounds down from starting weight Ha... don't even have to update the overall section for this since February -__- March Haven't… Continue reading New Year’s Resolutions for 2020 – Progress as of April 3rd